It Could Have Been Different..

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us.  That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. 

 ~Emily Kimbrough

I found this quote when I Google searched "best friend quotes". I thought it was fitting..at least for now. You see, when you call someone your best friend, it means you will be there for them, always and forever. You talk to them, tell them everything. If they tick you off, tell them. Don't go walking on eggshells around them. That's hardly friendship, let alone best friendship. A fight every once in awhile is good for the relationship..we all know not everyone agrees.

And, for that matter, let me just go ahead and toss this out there: nobody's perfect. As much as I hate Hannah Montana, she did one thing right: singing that song. Because, at least part of it is true. There is no one, NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON, who is perfect. Myself included. Shocker, I know! I mean, I always that I was perfect..just kidding, I always knew I wasn't. Duh.

I guess you're probably wondering why I'm saying all of this, right? Well, let me tell you..

About 5 minutes ago I was on a friend's blog...one I considered to be one of my bestest friends, and trust me, I don't hand that title out easily..! Anyways, I read something that was like a smack in the face. A hard one..think of the worst hit you've ever taken, multiply it by ten, and there you go.. And then, I started crying. Man, I seem to be doing that alot lately! But, I had good reason. Usually, when you read something about yourself in your best friend's blog, it's good right? In this case, you're wrong. And, let me tell you, that hurts. As my best friend, at least tell me what you think. Don't blog about me, and then wait for me to see it. Oh yeah, and don't stop talking to me either. Who does that?

You see, I thought things were fine. Guess I'm stupid, huh? Well, I certainly feel stupid now. I guess I never really meant that much to you..because, if I had, you would have treated this situation differently. Thanks for letting me know though..

I didn't mean for that one situation to turn into such a big deal. What happened..that was against the rules. I'm not sorry that I did it..I'm just sorry that it cost our friendship. Because, it did, didn't it? That's what you meant. I know. And, no, I don't understand. Maybe I never will. Maybe you could explain it to me? Of course, then you would actually have to talk to me..and you don't want to, do you?

Let me tell you something though..:I'd rather hear it from you than from your blog.

I guess it's done though. Not much I can do, right?

Remember what I told you the other night..? I told you that if you ever needed to talk, I'm here. It's still true. I'll always be there for you..maybe now from a distance..I guess that's your decision. I hope you choose to talk to me soon..just let me know..

Until then, remember, no matter what..I'm here. And I hope you'll be there for me.

I Know I Can, I Know I Can..

We all challenge ourselves. Some of us challenge ourselves to get better grades in school, or to work harder at work. We challenge ourselves to lose weight. We challenge ourselves to eat healthier. I’m sure the list could go on and on.

Well, a very good friend of mine (Bethany) and I are challenging ourselves to do something. It’s a very HARD thing to do. It’s called: NO COMPLAINING & LOOKING ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS. I know..tough. Extremely tough.  You know the saying “harder than it looks?” Well, that saying definitely pertains to THIS.

Believe me guys, it’s HARD to look at the bright side of things..especially when your day is about as dark it’s ever been. We challenged ourselves on a Wednesday, and let me tell you, the day after was about THE WORST day in a long time. It was very challenging to look at the bright side of things.

The day started out pretty perfect..out the door and on the way to school in record time! But, it quickly went downhill after I pulled into the parking lot at school. Bad days seem to work like that; you wake up in a totally chipper mood, and BAM, it smacks you in the face..ugh..

Needless to say, what started as a day where I was going to STAY POSITIVE and LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, soon turned into a pathetic pity party..sorry guys..it was the worst.. :( And, then, I got frustrated at myself for NOT looking at the bright side..which made everything that much better.. (ok, that was definitely sarcasm..) And, bad news..:I actually cried yesterday. Several times, in fact.

It wasn’t a pitiful type of crying though. And no, I’m not a baby. But, sometimes, when you have so much PRESSURE on you..it’s hard NOT to cry. And let me tell you, the pressure felt never ending. There’s so much going on now! It’s the BUSIEST time of year for me..and there are some things that I want that just feel so out of reach! It doesn’t help that people expect certain things out of you that you feel INCAPABLE of doing. Plus, I’m trying SO HARD to be a good example..and that’s tough. Tougher than tough! THE TOUGHEST!

But, even though I kinda cracked yesterday..I’m not turning back on my challenge to myself! Nope. Not gonna do that. Because I’m not a quitter! So, I’m keeping my head up high. Looking on the bright side. And, most of all, catching (or TRYING to catch) myself before complaining. And, I think it’s helping..at least alittle :)

The Definition

BEST FRIEND:

    Dictionary.com defines this word as: the one friend who is closest to you

    UrbanDictionary uses a WHOLE PARAGRAPH to describe those two words:

Best Friends are very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing, or the most important things in your life. When you’re sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up.

They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on, because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases they would take a bullet for you, because it would be too painful to watch you get hurt.

Here's my definition:

  DEBORAH JONELLE WHITING..my best friend in the whole wide world.

 We are the BRACE BUDDIES.. we both have braces..and I guess something just formed out of that! lol

In english class, we have to write journals..and, this year, Debby and I wrote a whole series about the Brace Buddies: superheroes, who save the world with their super powers! I was N.E., and I had freeze rays. She was D.J., and she had super strength! And, we chose Mr. Madson, our English teacher, to be our boss..we renamed him MR. MADNESS! Good times..

 We've been through some tough situations..like that time where she dated my ex-boyfriend. (No worries guys, we can totally joke about it now :)) Or, just recently, when we had the whole miscommunications thing..yeah, that coulda been better. lol

But, seriously now, I don't know where I would be without her! I can go to her with anything..whenever I need her, she's there! And, let me tell you, that feels great. We all have those moments where we NEED to just..spill everything.. (I think I'm having one of those now..but I have to wait until I SEE HER TOMORROW TO TELL HER :()

Basically, I guess what I'm trying to say is..you can't replace her. She'll always be there for me. And I'll always be there for her! I'll stand up for her when she needs it. And when she needs to cry, or rant about boys, I'll ALWAYS listen! And, mess with her, I kick your butt! :D

There are others too..

Bethany Hader, Kelly Clements,  Sarah Hader,  Jennifer Congdon,  Sam Parker..

people I stick up for, laugh with, cry with, spill secrets to. You can't replace them either! 

I have no idea what I'll do next year when I can't have them with me. :(

But, right now, I have them. :) And, I will cherish these next few months..as much as I want to get OUT of highschool, I don't want to leave them! lol

 Because, right now, THEY are my cup of tea ;) haha