This morning, I woke up from a wonderful dream, hopped out of bed, and got ready for the day in a wonderful mood. There was prayer group this morning, so I left my house earlier than I would have on most days. I was so ready for the day to start!
Today was filled with things to look forward to: cap & gown pictures, SENIOR LUNCH, and a soccer game in which we were gonna crush Evangel!
The cap & gown pictures went great! I'm pretty excited about them. My class did one where we threw our caps up into the air and watched as they fell..it was just like the movies. :D The only sad thing was, as I looked up at the blue sky and watched the many graduation caps rain down upon us, I realized that there are only 50 days left until graduation! And then, highschool is over. Forever. Wow, that was alot to take in.
Then came the time for senior lunch. I love senior lunch!! Today was pizza, which was ok, because I haven't had pizza in almost 3 months..seriously. Anyways, it was our last senior lunch at school. We get one more, which takes place at a restaraunt during the last week of school.
Finally, came the end of the day. GAME TIME. I was pretty much looking forward to this game.
I'm a starter. I play defense, right wing. It's my position. It's what I'm good at. Last year, I was defender of the year. I'm not trying to brag..just saying, I know how to play defense.
Alot of people think you can just put anyone back in defense, and they'll do fine. First of all, you don't want to do 'fine' in a soccer game, you want to do GREAT. Second, that idea is so not true. Not everyone can play defense. There's a method to it..a type of judgement that you have to be good at. I'm not perfect at it..no way. But I try. And I pretty much get it.
Sadly, I didn't start today. And, I barely even played MY position. The position I love. The position I fit in.
You see, at my school, we were uniforms. They are the ugliest things you ever laid eyes on, but they aren't too uncomfortable, and I only have a couple more weeks to wear them. The girl's uniforms consist of a polo shirt and long skirt. The polo shirt has to be tucked in, or you will definitely be getting demerits.
Well, you wanna know what kept me from playing the whole first half of today's game? My untucked polo shirt. Yeah, I AM AN IDIOT.
I let my team down.
And, I'm mad at myself for it. I'm not mad at my coach; what he said is true: "If the handbook has a rule about tucking in your shirt, you will follow that rule."
So, yeah, I'm an idiot. For not doing something simple, like tucking in my polo shirt.
And, because I didn't tuck in my shirt, I had to sit the whole first half of the game. When I started the beginning of second half, my coach sent me to the LEFT side of the field. Totally unknown territory for me. So, I had a little trouble adjusting...then, I was switched to the right side..my favorite. And, I played my hardest. Or, I tried to. It was just..a rough game for me. I don't know why. Sometimes it just happens!
After playing most of the second half, my coach took me out to sit for a little bit. Then, he put me back in..AT THE FRONT OF THE LINE UP..basically, I was with the forwards, and mids..ALSO unknown territory for me!
I'm good at defense. It's what I do. But mid? or forward? I'm not used to those positions!! But, I still tried.
The game ended. We lost 4-0. Our coach didn't even talk to us..we just prayed, and left.
I was mad at myself. I cried on the way home. I kicked myself (mentally) for not tucking in my shirt. I let my team down. I don't even feel worthy of a starting position anymore..or any position. And, here's the worst thing....I think I might have lost my position.
I don't want to admit it..or even think it. But I'm afraid it might be true.
However, in everything I have just said, there's only one thing I can do about it:
TUCK IN MY SHIRT
and
PROVE MYSELF IN PRACTICE TOMORROW, AND EVERY PRACTICE AFTER THAT
so, I guess there were two things :D
And, aside from those two things, I can remember this:
1 Thessalonians 5:18.....In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Through everything, no matter what happens, we need to be thankful. And then, we'll get our cup of tea, just how we like it!
Yeah, he put you back in MY position!! >:( B/c I asked for a cup of water... What did he say when I asked him WHY he didn't put me back in!? Just a shake of the head and a shrug -.-
ReplyDeleteI am so sick of this. I'm going to break somebody in practice today :P