It's Harder Than It Looks

     Saying "goodbye" is easy..unless you're the person who's leaving. It's easy to watch someone pick up their life and start it in a different area. It's easy to watch them get in the car and drive away. It's easy to wish them luck, give them a hug, and tell them you'll see them again in a few days, weeks, months, etc. But. when you're on the other end, when YOU'RE the one leaving..that is a whole different story. Trust me, I went through it..and still am, sorta.
     My first goodbye came on Wednesday night..it was pretty hard, and it kinda surprised me! I mean, for the past few weeks, I've been saying goodbye to friends who have been leaving, and that was fine. I didn't cry. I was still going home, to my house, with my family. But, when it came time for me to leave, I could feel the difference.
     It's not so much that I don't want to leave, and that I'm not excited. Seriously..I'm super excited! And, I look at this as my next adventure. :) BUT, it's hard to look at everyone (especially the monsters, and my brothers) and realize that life is going to go on for them..without me. But, maybe I should stop writing about it, or I might start crying again.

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     So, I realize I wasn't the greatest at blogging over the summer. I know..I'm a failure. haha To bring you up to date, here's what happened: not much! I worked. I hung out with friends. I shopped (alittle too much) I went to church. See, nothing spectacular. Sad? Not really..it was a pretty good summer. A nice recovery after such a hectic school year!

     And, now that you guys are brought up to date on the past, let me fill you in on the future.

     For now, the plan is to head to Pensacola Christian College to study NURSING. In fact, we're in Pensacola, Florida as I type! I'm pretty excited..I've been looking forward to this for awhile. I've kinda known what I wanted to do, and decided in 11th grade where I wanted to go. See, I'm the kind of person that likes to have a plan..for everything. :)

I'm also a bit of an organizational freak. ;) But, don't hold that against me!

Anyways, I already have a "sort of" plan for how I would like the next few years to go: graduate, become an RN, get married in the fall (because, in my opinion, that would be the prettiest season!), wait at least 3 years, have kids, be a stay-at-home mom/part-time nurse until they are in school, then figure the rest out later. haha But that's just a rough plan. Trust me guys, I'm not a control freak..that's just what I think would be nice. :)

    
Anyways, I suppose I should get to bed. Tomorrow is pretty much a 'PLAY' day, which could or could not be super fun, depending on this stupid tropical storm. -.-

                 I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO THE BEACH, BUT THANK YOU WEATHER FOR MESSING THAT UP.

haha

Nighty-night guys!