Life IS What You Make It

January 1, 2011. 12:00 A.M. Most of you were probably spending the first few seconds kissing into the New Year. Or at a party with friends. Or cheering because

                YAY, IT'S FINALLY 2011!

 Or, maybe even some of you were..sleeping..

        But me? I spent those first few seconds of the new year with my aunt, uncle, cousin, mom, dad, sister, brother, other brother, and one of my bestest friends. And then, after those few seconds were over, all of the adults went to sleep, and the teens stayed up (mostly) wasting 2 hours and 21 minutes of their life watching INCEPTION.

Don't get me wrong, it was a good movie! (Except for the end..I REALLY wanna know if that top stopped spinning! Personally, I think it did, because it was starting to wobble, and in his dreams, it never wobbled.) It was just extremely loooooooooooooooooong. And sad, but happy at the same time. And, it had some good parts. But, if I had a choice (which, I DO) I probably won't be watching it again.

To be  honest though..I spent some of the movie thinking about totally different things that had nothing to do with the movie. Like, the fact that one of my bestest friends (who happens to be the same one I mentioned earlier) is about to be in a relationship. And, the last time she had a special guy, I did too. And, wow..I kinda really miss it.

And, yes, the big, giant, ugly, green monster of jealousy popped up at that one opportune moment. Because, HONESTLY, I am so tired of waiting. Sometimes I feel like the hopeless loser who will graduate college, get the job of her dreams, find the BEST place to live, and wind up completely and totally ALONE. Oh, and I'll probably get a few animals too. Who knows, maybe I'll be that one CAT LADY that everyone talks about..

Ok, ok, I'm sorry for moping! This is the one time I needed to vent, and it feels good. :) haha. I just..need to...get how I feel out there. Because it's really hard to tell people when their love lives are so perfect. And, no, it didn't really hit me until now..I guess we never know when it hits. But, let's face it people! I'm always the girl that gets over-looked. Or forgotten. Or just plain ignored.

But, you know what else I figured out? Maybe, what they say is true. Maybe, because I waited so long for Prince Charming/Perfect to come along, he'll be the best guy ever. At least, this is what I'm hoping. And, no, God doesn't owe me anything. If anything, I owe Him so much more that I can give! So this isn't a "God, I can't believe you're doing this to me, how could you?" moment. I don't have those anymore. :) I KNOW God has a plan for me! So, I've accepted it! And, no more of this pity-party stuff. It's up to me to accept what comes my way..I can make it good, or I can make it bad. And, I choose to make it the BEST!

PHEW, since that's over, ( sorry I put you through that :)),  let's go through the normal "NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION" THING.

NO, I AM NOT HAVING ANY! Everyone knows no one keeps those, and I am definitely one of those people that gets through maybe,a day.? So, instead of "RESOLUTIONS" I think I'' do goals. And no, they aren't the same thing!

                                                                                  

 For instance,
 GOAL #1: Finish my ODACS project, make it to Nationals, and place..at least 3rd!

GOAL #2: Achieve A's in all of my classes, therefore not having to take any FINALS

GOAL #3: Save up enough money to pay cash for a JEEP

GOAL #4: Try to practice my clarinet more..and become much better :)

Now that we have goals, how about some great memories? Here goes..:

• becoming BEST FRIENDS with my BRACE BUDDIE, DJ
• OBX 2010, sun, sand, waves..and Enrique Iglesias ;)
• the beginning of SENIOR YEAR, and the last first day of highschool
• my 18th birthday..and the surprise party that was totally unexpected!
• the MONSTERS..no kids are better!!
• eating a Reese's for the first time in a year! (2009 was the no candy year..THAT   resolution I kept)

Well, I think that's enough for now! Sorry it's such a loooonnng post! But, it just proved to me that, yes, life goes on. And, it IS what you make it. And, you can make it your cup of tea..what could be better? :)